2015

2015. What a year it had been. As for me, 2015 was the most frustrating and challenging year for me so far. I just could not hold to my maxim of living life to the fullest simply because the opportunities were slowly diminishing from my sight.

However, I keep reminding myself that maybe God has something better than what I had planned previously. But, the question of the day remains, for how long do I need to stay strong holding myself from feeling deeply disappointed for net getting what I have wanted thus far.

So, I presume I need to look around at all opportunities that are available. But, given the current oil price route, declining ringgit, and persistence absence of job intakes in the Government and Private Sector, surely all these factors have so far hit me down towards the bottom of the ocean. Again, I need to stay strong and contain that sad feeling so that I can remain steadfast on this long-winding road as what life calls it.

This study program is just not that giving me the persuasion or the pathways that can lead my future to a better state nor the jobs are easily available during this current situation. Only Allah knows this feeling. Only He that I could express all my regrets and sadness after all these months or years of intermittent challenges.

There are not much things that I want to achieve in life as per career wise. I opted for medicine, pilot/airport management, diplomats/ptd, and central bankers/government investment funds officers (finance-related). All of these options were no longer present as time had left these behind. But I do believe in the power of Him as He can redirect you anywhere that he wants. And so I pray that 2015 would never ever happen again the future.

And even if it happens, I would make sure that I know that I can learn from experience as I grow older day by day.

I do hope 2016 will give me a new hope and faith in life.