Thinking back on how fast we have
changed, it makes us wonder that we somehow have to face certain adjustments
from time to time. Be it good or bad, I always remind myself that I will have
to keep myself going and strong.
For the past few weeks, I had
started reading a book by Prof Kamil (If you don’t know, then I suggest you go
to another planet if you are a Malay Malaysian) entitled “Hadiah Buat Anak” or
something like that. From what I read, I could conclusively say that my life
struggle is almost the same as him, maybe better than him slightly.
I wished to go to overseas ever
since I was a boy. I am always fascinated by the grandeur architecture of
historical monuments in Europe and North America. The opportunity to ride an
aeroplane for 13-20 hours just to reach the ultimate destination. The natural
view of the Alps and Cliff of Moher in IRELAND.
At the same time, I aspired to
study at foreign universities. But, due to my own stupidity, carelessness and
lack of attention of various applications, I did not manage to get one.
What makes me more disappointed
was the fact that some other friends of mine whose results are similar to mine
managed to land on a foreign scholarship, enabling them to travel other
countries and ultimately posting pictures on their social medias and “Salam
Perantauan” column.
I know that Allah will DETERMINE
the fate for each of His followers, but the pain was just too difficult to bear
on my own shoulders. Imagine your long-awaited visions since childhood just
banished in the blink of an eye, no longer to be seen forever.
Going back to MKI, he encountered
the same fate when he did not manage to obtain the sponsorship that he thought
that he could get. Unfortunately, his own denial and arrogance paid a price for
his future when he “failed” miserably (considering the current inflation of
excellent results with 30 years of history) and did not get what he wanted,
which was to pursue Law in the UK before becoming the Prime Minister of
Malaysia in the future.
Due to his own negligence, he did
not learn from his mistakes, costing him to enroll in multiple colleges before
he finally managed to get the Young Tutors’ Scheme from UITM as a result of his
impressive results in his undergraduate study. And 10 years later, he did go to
overseas and pursued his study there with his family.
You see, life is somewhat
mysterious. It is beyond our control by any means. However, there are 2 things
that will help us to get what we want in life.
First, efforts after efforts.
Second, always pray and ask to our Superior to grant what we always wish for.
He knows what is his best for you, and sometimes with the power of doa, you can
still get what you want.
So here am I, in the year of
2016, I am wondering, will I be able to study or work overseas someday? Of
course, I want it. It will never be erased from my entire life’s memory for as
long as I am still alive. For the time being, I am going to make full use of
what I have so that I would not take it for granted when the opportunity is
longer there. If the PTD thingy is still available in the future, I hope that I
can be a diplomat so that I will fulfill one of my ambitions that I yet to
become.
p/s: Insyallah, one fine day.
